WEEK 16
I am so sick and tired of this situation!
Everything is clear now. Mekdem, Lwazi, Whetu, Nanda, Barkhado and Marina have no intention of working together. We used to talk among all of us, but now these two groups have formed and it seems like nothing can bring us together anymore.
Paaye, Clara, Kumiko, Sun Li, Junior and I tried with all our might to convince them, but to no avail.
We tried to tell them that we all have to work together, we tried, but there is just no way. They won't reason with us anymore, it's all about hate.
They hate me and therefore they hate us.
I understand them very well. When I came here I was going to follow orders. I was going to quietly eliminate Junior and get a spot on the starship.
I was going to be a Soviet hero...
But I'm on my own here.
My superiors, politicians, bureaucrats they are all far, far away...
I don't want to follow orders without asking questions anymore! I am tired of doing what somebody else says is best for me!
I want to make my own decisions. I can make every choice I want, and I'm going to do it!
I want to choose whom I can trust. I want to choose to trust Junior, even if it's something I was absolutely told not to do.
I will show everyone I am not weak!
I will get on the starship by making my own decisions.
Everyday of my life I had to fight, and I will win this fight too.
I will get my spot!
Irina
